I am home! I have been home now for 4 days and it has been, well let's just say...wonderful and "all of the above!"
Maria and I!
We left the hospital at about 12:15 p.m. on Saturday. I was, believe it or not, sad to say goodbye to some of the people I had grown to love while there. My therapists, my new friends and some of the nurses and staff. After 5 weeks with these people I feel like they are my friends and I care about them and it's hard to say goodbye.
(Do I look pale to anyone?)
When I arrived home it was just Brian, Levi and I. Emily and Andrew were in Victor with Brian's parent's. I walked into a completely clean house and filled refrigerator and freezer...thank you to the mystery cleaners and those who brought us food!
For the 1st two days this house felt like a new house, like we had just moved! It felt so wonderful!
Emily and Andrew arrived Sunday evening and it was a very sweet reunion! They were darling and showered me with pictures and projects they had made for me while I was gone.
My mom showed up a few hours after them and we were well on our way to what I think I'll call "grateful chaos." I am so grateful to be home and I am continually grateful for the amazing progress I make each day and the service from our neighbors, friends and family, but it is chaotic around here.
Doing my therapy stretches with the kids!
Even Levi was into it, pretty impressive for a 6 month old huh?!
I won't lie and say it's been nothing but wonderful since I arrived. I am even now more aware of my new limitations and I continually ask myself, "when will I be an independent mother again?" Like I said, I help out when I can, but it's limited. For all of those other moments I just watch my mom and Brian count the millions of steps it requires to be a mom. I don't even know how I did what I did before. It baffles me. Because of this it has caused some stress and I have had two emotional breakdowns since. They come and they go.
Physically, I continue to improve with each day! I am able to walk around my house, very carefully, without any kind of aid, for short periods of time. We met with my new Physical Therapist today and he seems to have a good plan to maximize our time together and my physical progress! I am in a lot of muscular pain in my neck and upper body and then the nerve pain sometimes takes it's toll. I am hoping that my upper body pain heals quickly because that is one of the hardest parts of my day.
I am so happy to be home and I love all of the extra spontaneous hugs that I get from my kids! It is not easy, we are having to adjust in so many ways and there is a fair amount of stress involved. So, like I said it is "grateful chaos!" We will be fine and in time we will all be adjusted to our "new normal" and hopefully, our "old normal" will be in our sights...only that we will be better, more humble, loving and serving people! I am trying...